The Horrible

Chloee and I went to Wal-Mart today. I was just strolling along and she was standing at the end of the cart when I stopped and she went FLYING over the front. It was as though I watched my life in slow motion. I tried to reach my hands out to catch her but being behind the cart and with my short arms, made this impossible. I watched as she flipped over landing right on the top of her head then her neck twisted all funny and then the rest of her body followed the fall. All I could do was scream, and they weren't very good words. Everyone was just staring at me. She laid there without moving for a few seconds and after watching her horrific fall, my heart sank and I had thought I'd lost my sweet girl. As I screamed in the aisle, finally an older woman that worked there came to help me. I just felt like everyone was staring at me like I was crazy. Everything was spinning as the tears came down my face and I tried to comfort my baby. She screamed and screamed, nothing could comfort her. The worker tried to calm us both down. I just couldn't get that image out of my head, it was so horrifying and I couldn't stop trembling. The worker grabbed the store manager and he talked to me. He told me to go see Chloee's pediatrician to make sure she was okay. Then he tried to feel me out as far as if I was going to sue or something. I'm sure he had to do that but I was like, "Yeah, don't worry I'm not going to sue you, it was my daughter who was standing up in the front of the cart." Not that I would have anyway... We live a WAY too sue happy world.

I run out of the store, strap her in and start driving to the dr's office. Chloee keeps trying to fall asleep and she keeps telling me, "Mommy, I tired" as she dozes off. I had remembered that you aren't supposed to let them sleep if they have a concussion so as I'm bawling in the car trying to keep her awake, I just needed someone to CALM me down. My mom doesn't answer, Kathy didn't answer. Why was NO ONE available when I needed them. Then Kathy called me back and calmed me down. THANK YOU KATHY!!!!!

We finally got there and I asked if they could get her in and of course we waited for a little bit, but I sure didn't mind at all! To make this very long story short. She is okay, he just checked everything out and checked her head, eyes, you know the routine. Well, it sure freaked me out. I pretty much couldn't stop crying the rest of the day/night. I think I am all cried out for a while. I actually feel dehydrated. Is is possible to cry SO much that you become dehydrated? Well, if so, if I only accomplished one thing today, it was that!!!

What a crappy day. Way too emotional for me but I am very happy that Chloee is well and I feel very blessed that she didn't have any severe damage!